I've never been the object of attraction. I'm not pretty in the standard sense. My body flaws outweigh my body goods.
So you would think that rejection would hurt less. But it doesn't.
I'm not good at making or keeping friends. It is a common thing to have people move out of my life on a regular basis.
So you would think that rejection would hurt less. But it doesn't.
I don't know what I mourn for more - the loss of a potential friend or the pain of unrequited crush.
How could I have been so stupid?
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ReplyDeleteThe simple answer is that you weren’t stupid, all those months ago. Regardless of what you look like, or act like, or work to be, no one wishes to be rejected. And often, it isn’t deserved or right: it doesn’t reflect on you as much as it seems, yet it will still manage to blind you into thinking your flaws all-consuming.
ReplyDeleteAs an internet stranger I don’t know you, and I won’t even begin to pretend that I can from a handful of posts. But I don’t believe a bad hand means a bad player - quite the opposite, actually. I hope this message, whether it finds you or not, comes when circumstances are better - or at least sees you still managing to soldier on, because that’s a cause worth fighting for.